“So when is enough, enough?” I’ve been asking myself that for quite some time now. As time goes by that thought keeps rolling around my skull like a marble.

“Why do I keep dealing with this?” And there it is again. So tonight as I sit here in my bed with flashbacks flashing before me, I’m going crazy.

This isn’t the first time either. The past couple years I have tended to latch on to an idea or thought and not let go. Is it because getting older makes you reflect on things? Maybe having kids makes me want to make them be better than what I was, so I’m stressing out?

Or maybe I’m just being over dramatic. Which I know most people would think that, if you don’t know someone that tends to be your first thought, right?

But let me say now I realize most people are not being over dramatic, they are truly tired, hurting, depressed, or worrying about something.

So I think I had an eiphany tonight. It IS enough. I don’t care what others think. I’m going to take a risk, I’m going to try something different. I’m going to take things I love and enjoy and integrate them into something I can control, I can have for my own and make people happy.

It’s going to be a lot of work but I’m not getting any younger…..